aaaag!

every few months i get this insane jealousy thing going on. and i KNOW its so crazy and rediculous.
i know i am a catch. i know i am super, i know my husband loves ME and comes home to ME. but i cant help but feel... i dunno if jealous is even the right word...
i feel like i am frumpy, out of shape,dumpy, not pretty and fabuloso. and my husband has worked with in the past, and maintains contact with these goreous women who are VERY much his exact "type" gorgeous women with heart shaped faces, round cheeks, pretty eyes, long(ish) dark brown hair, full lips, curvy body. you know, like me, only.... HOT. women who take the time to care about their appearance.
women who dont smell like breastmilk and armpits. women who wear clothes to accentuate their assets, not for easy nursing access. women who brush their hair and teeth and showe daily. women who actually have the energy, and sex drive to have sex with their partner.(that last part i assume) women who flirt with my husband, because he is attractive. he is sexy, he is.... the type of person who flirts without knowing he is flirting. the type of man who sees nothing wong with discussing ones sex life/fantasies with friends who are co-workers, and are hot women. he just doesnt see how desirable he is, and how that could make me feel like shit.

but i do. cause... just cause.